Have you ever felt like other people are controlling your thoughts, your emotions, your inner dialogue, the way you feel about yourself? The next question is – without them knowing it? You just do it to yourself? Whether you are in a situation and you take something a person says, and in your mind, you twist and turn it into a negative experience without that even being their intention?
Do you ever compare yourself to others? Do you ever feel like you’re not good enough? Well these negative thoughts have crept into my mind as of late and it’s starting to drive me crazy. How can I be strong enough to combat these negative emotions? I consider myself an open-minded, free-spirited kinda gal, so I am able to realize that I’m on the path that I’m supposed to be on (even though it wasn’t planned by me and it’s, quite frankly, sometimes not that fun (but it is)). Why do those stinkin’ negative emotions come into my mind and weaken me? I find myself feeling depressed in a literal sense.
Is it the cold-ass weather (there is a serious blizzard going on in the midwest as I type). Is it this depressed economy? Is it that I haven’t seen the sun in over a week? Is it because I think I’m not challenging myself in ways that I used to when I was younger? (but I am) Regardless, I want to stop being so freaking hard on myself.
So how do I do this? I giggle and sigh because I have no clue. I guess all I can do is educate myself on ways to make myself happier by reading books, websites, talking to those who seem to be happy and asking them what their secret is, keeping my mind still so the answer can come to me, and to do things that make me happy.
In the meantime, I will be shoveling my way out of this funk with a smile on my face.