Oh man, where do I start? First of all, I’m a lover. I love to love people, things, nature, music, art, and the list goes on. I try my best to enjoy life (I’ve got my mom & hubby to thank for this one). Reading, educating myself, talking to others about interesting topics and positivity, traveling, going to museums, and learning about different cultures are things I am interested in. I find it all very inspiring.
With the InnerPeace Project Blog, I am sharing what I learn in hopes that maybe it will inspire just one person to follow his/her heart, to be kind and to love others. Finding our purpose can maybe help us be our best selves. And maybe if we are our best selves, living on this Earth wouldn’t be so bad.
Believe me, I am still in search for my best self. I am a youngish mom with 2 toddlers. My emotions are constantly being tested with them, and that isn’t easy for a “free-spirit” like myself. There will be a few stories about them, but this is not a “mommy blog” (no offense to those – I read them and love em). This is not a self-help blog (same thing). This is simply a blog to share my thoughts and feelings about topics that I find interesting.
I encourage you to share your thoughts and feelings or questions. I may not know how to answer or help you, but maybe another reader can. The InnerPeace Project is here to help you feel that peace in your heart when your life feels a little crazy.
August 5th, 2010
The Latest and Greatest:
You may be wondering why I’m writing this blog, what direction I want to go with it and what the point of it is. Well, here’s how The InnerPeace Project started and what the goal is…
My quest for innerpeace started about seven years ago. I was 23, newly married, a college grad, just came back from backpacking around Europe for almost two months, had great friends and family – basically had a fantastic life, but I would suffer from intense anxiety. I was anxious about my career path, the state of my friendships, my family, not having enough savings, not having the latest purse, carrying on a few extra pounds…the important stuff, right?
I would get these terrible stomach aches that would literally stop me in my tracks and cause me to double over in pain. I saw several doctors and they diagnosed me with ulcers, acid reflux, IBS, and lactose intolerance. I had none of those. I finally saw an insightful doctor who took the time to ask about my mental state. I told him my list of worries and he diagnosed me with trapped gas caused by anxiety. Hmmmm….anxiety was what was giving me these horrible, debilitating stomach aches? Interesting. It turns out how and what I was thinking about was causing a physical/physiological effect on my body. Wow.
I went on a low dosage of an antianxiety medication and started to feel a bit normal again. I remember thinking to myself, ‘oh this is what it’s like not to worry so much.’ I was more even keeled – maybe a little too even keeled because I realized not only was I not experiencing the lows, but I wasn’t experiencing the highs either.
I got off the medication (it’s not easy and if you are thinking of doing this, please consult a doctor). After about two weeks of horrendous withdrawal effects, I started to feel normal again but the nagging thoughts were beginning to creep back into my head and I was starting that whole vicious cycle again. Luckily, I have a wonderful husband who is the most empathetic person I have ever met. He would listen to my worrisome thoughts and finally he said, “Clear your head of the clutter.” That phrase struck a chord and made me realize, yes, I will not worry about things I have no control over and I will not feed that ego-driven aspect of my personality anymore.
Once I let go, things started falling into place for me. Because I wasn’t so preoccupied with negative or worrisome thoughts, I was open to broader and greater opportunities. Great books fell in my lap, inspiring people came into my life, and I finally got that challenging and exciting job opportunity . Don’t get me wrong, I still went through trials and tribulations, but with my newfound attitude, life was just a bit easier to deal with.
I had all this free time to read as many books as I could. As I read and read, I would share information with my friends and family and could see that they were benefitting from the information as well. I’m opinionated and love to help people. My dear friend, Megan, is very similar so we thought we would start a blog to share our thoughts, new information, and our stories.
As for the present moment…
Megan is heading down her own path right now and wants to help others in a different way. I will share her exciting situation as she progresses.
As for me, I will continue to read and meditate in pursuit for real happiness, MY innerpeace. I will also continue to work on being as earth friendly as possible. I want to be a positive role model for my children, my husband, my family, my friends and to people who share a desire to live their best life possible. I try my best everyday and it’s HARD. I’m very far from perfect, but I am going to do my best to share what I learn in hopes of inspiring just one person.
This blog is my way of thanking the universe for all the opportunities that have been presented to me.
Let’s do this together and see what kind of difference we can make. Good luck with your journey and wish me luck with mine!
This Is How We Started:
Greetings, Peace Seekers! Hello and how do you do? We are Ashley and Megan, full-time friends (since the fifth grade!) and part-time child wranglers (actually Ashley is a professional momma and wife, while Megan represents the single women). We are two urban cowgirls on a mission to search and share the not-so secrets behind true balance of the mind, body, and spirit, while trying to help our planet in our free time. If you have an idea you would like to share, a tip on how we can better our planet/body/mind, an inspiring story, or a thought on a way we could all work together for the common goal, then email us at email@example.com. May your day be filled with loads of positive energy!